Start
Here: Welcome to Crash Cart Confessional
This is
not a cure story. This is documentation.
Welcome. If
you've landed here, you might be looking for a miracle, a protocol, or a
guarantee that "it gets better." I can't give you those things. But I
can offer you something else: companionship in the mess.
Who is
this for?
This space
is for the Queer folks living with ME/CFS, invisible illnesses, and chronic
disabilities who are tired of being told to "push through,"
"stay positive," or "just rest a little more."
It's for the
ones who have been called "lazy," "deconditioned," or
"nutjobs" by doctors, priests, and even friends who should know
better. It's for the ones who know that "looking fine" is a lie, and
that the grief of losing your former self is a daily reality.
What
you'll find here:
Real
Talk, No Sugar-Coating I write about the grief of losing your former self, the exhaustion
of pacing, and the isolation of being "untranslatable" to the healthy
world. I write about the anger of medical gaslighting and the quiet horror of
realizing your body is no longer a reliable home.
Intersectionality
& Institutional Failure We explore how being Queer and chronically ill compounds the
struggle. We look at how we navigate faith, politics, and community when the
institutions meant to support us—from the church to the clinic—often fail us or
actively harm us.
Documentation,
Not Inspiration I
am not here to inspire you to "overcome." I am here to document what
it looks like to survive, adapt, and find meaning inside limits that didn't
exist before. We reject the "inspiration porn" narrative. We are not
heroes; we are survivors.
A New
Voice: The Podcast This
blog is now the home of Crash Cart Confessional, a video podcast
co-hosted by myself and a friend who is navigating his own disability journey.
My Lens: Living with ME/CFS (the invisible, fluctuating energy crash).
His Lens: Living with a different disability, bringing a unique perspective on chronic care and a professional background in hospice—offering a rare look at how we talk about mortality, acceptance, and the end of the road.
The Format: We record in static, low-energy bursts. No polished sets. No "performing wellness." Just two people talking about what it actually feels like to be disabled in a world that wants us to disappear.
A Note on
Energy & Consistency I write and record in bursts. Sometimes I can churn out a post or
record an episode; other times, the act of typing one sentence or turning on a
camera costs me days. If the posting schedule is irregular, it's not because
I've forgotten you—it's because I am living the reality I write about. We will
not burn out to keep a schedule. We will rest when we need to.
The
Mission
We live in a
world that prefers we disappear—politely, quietly, spiritually. This blog and
podcast are a refusal of that silence.
It's a space
to say: I am here. I am real. And I am not crazy.
Whether
you're newly diagnosed, decades in, or just trying to figure out how to exist
in a body that won't cooperate, you belong here.
Pull up a
chair. Rest your feet. You don't have to perform for us.
